Tuesday, December 22, 2009

Hallelujah was a Hoodrat

They wrote her name in magic marks. On stop signs and subway cars.

They've got a mural up on east thirteenth it says

"Hallelujah Rest in Peace"

Wednesday, December 16, 2009

So, Marry me, John

Marry me, John.

I'll be so good to you

Thursday, November 12, 2009

New Beginnings

Don't feel so new

Or maybe they do

Tuesday, June 30, 2009

Shit Happens

How could you forget your yellow bird?

i used to feel so safe in your arms, in your eyes
i was so happy
i don't know how to deal with this
good day goodbye sunshine

don't forget your yellow bird.

Can you take me back to the person i used to be?
back when you were there for me.
i know it seems like forever
but do me this favor please.

Tuesday, May 5, 2009

It's a pity

It's a crying shame.

He pulled you down again

How painful it must be

To bruise so easily


It's a pity, it's a downright crime

It happens all the time

You wanna stay little daddy's girl

You wanna hide from the viscous world...


Don't cry, you know the tears will do no good

So dry your eyes

Your daddy, he's the iron man

Battle ship wrecked on dry land

Your mamma, she's a bitter bride

She'll never be satisfied

You know, and that's not right

But don't cry

You know the tears will do no good

So dry your eyes

They told you life is hard

Misery from the start, it's dull

It's slow, it's painful

But I tell you life is sweet

In spite of the misery

There's so much more, be grateful

Well, who do you believe

Who will you listen to, who will it be

Because it's high time that you decide

In your own mind

I've tried to comfort you

I tried to tell you to be patient

That they are blind and they can't see

Fortune gonna come one day

It all gonna fade away

Your daddy the war machine

And your momma the long and suffering

Prisoner of what she can not see

For they told you life is hard

Misery from the start, it's dull,

It's slow, it's painful

But I tell you life is sweet

In spite of the misery

There's so much more, be grateful

So who will you believe

Who will you listen to

Who will it be

Because it's high time that you decide

It's time to make up your own

Your own state of mind

They told you life is long

Be thankful when it's done

Don't ask for more, be grateful

But I tell you life is short

Be thankful, because before you know it

It will be over

Because life is sweet

Life is all so very short

Life is sweet

And life is all so very short

Life is sweet

Life is sweet
damn near four years

Tuesday, April 14, 2009

This is who I am

I know all my friends...

I don't want to know anything more about your past.
I'm not into talking
I'd rather just hold hands.
Let's just enjoy this summer together.
help me through.
i promise i'll help you change your decietful ways.

Sunday, February 22, 2009

adrienne, i thought i knew you.

today was the worst/best day ever.

i would really appreciate working tuesdays thursdays and sundays more often, please.

Tuesday, January 27, 2009

Training mix

aka fight mix.

Vawn - Lemme See Dat
Brooke Valentine - Girlfight Remix
Hit The Lights- Bodybag
Dropkick Murphys - Walk Away
Rick Ross - Hustlin
Drowning Pool- Bodies
Lil Wayne - Stuntin like my daddy
Eminem ft xzibit - Say My Name
Rick Ross - The Boss
Death From Above 1979 - Turn it out
Lil Wayne - Duffelbag Boy

Monday, January 19, 2009

do you think it's weird

that, as i'm rereading twilight,
the second it starts to snow in the book
i look up and it's snowing outside?

i do.

Monday, January 12, 2009

10,000 leagues

beneath the sea


Tuesday, January 6, 2009

Dear Cooper

I cannot love anyone else.
i really can't.
three years later.
i can't even love my family
or my friends.
seeing how i'm the one who ended it,
i shouldn't be the one complaining.
I've only called one person my "boyfriend" in the past three years, and even that was for a week, and i didn't really mean it.
I love you.
I don't know how else to say it
i was young and naive.
but i meant it every single time i told you i loved you
and i still do.
maybe i can still live because i know you're happy.
and with the faint hope that sometime down the road.
you'll care about me again like you used to.
there's only that tiny chance.
but really.
it's what keeps me going.
i could see "the perfect boy"
everything i want.
in fact i have. twice.
and i completely passed it up.
because they weren't perfect to me.
no one will ever be more perfect than you.
being thirteen
lying on the patio. watching the airplanes.
i can't even look at the sky at night without tearing up
because i remember you
and it just hurts too bad.
Since 3 days after we broke up.
i've wanted you back.
three years later.
it still hurts as clear as the day you left.
some say i'm jaded to being a teenager.
but, i just know what i want.
and i'm not content "trying out" other people
it's not fair to them
and it just hurts me.
i could stare into the eyes of leonardo dicaprio,
and walk away.
because even he would never measure up to you.
it hurts even worse
because we're still friends.
and i just want to talk to you about it
but i'm so paranoid of alienating you that i would never chance it
i read your letters all the time.
i want to read them everyday,
but i won't let me hurt myself like that.
it hurts the worst
because i read what you said like
"I really want this to work out, but i just feel like you don't"
and it kills me.
every time.
i could recite those from memory.
but the words cut me just as deep everytime.

i love you cooper augustus loughlin.
always have.
always will.

blah blah blah

i might have been wrong about liking odd years.
maybe that was just 2007.


current playlist:
Grace Gale
Heavy Heavy Low Low
Fear Before
See You Next Tuesday
The Number 12 looks like you.
and of course
a good bit of death cab.

hi my name's bella swan.
and the only person i can trust in my life
lives 11 hours away.
her name is taylor hyslop
and i don't want to be melodramatic
but she's basically my jacob black.